boredome and what it does.

so im just sittin here listening to music on spotify and playin on facebook when it dawns on me. i have some of the weirdest friends on earth and i love them to death. but to people who don't know me or them would take us seriously and we could get into a lot of trouble for some of the stuff we say. but oh well thats like saying drama and haters make the world go round. i know don't make sense to me either. but on to other news




i have a smashwords account for selling my books. :D to that. and i have also been working on all of my books and have been working on a business plan for my catering company plus still making wedding renewal plans. yeah i know im busy. but its totally worth it at the end of the day. its been a long month and its only half way over. it makes me wonder if i will ever get everything done or if i just need to open a book store / coffee house instead. i don't know i wanna work with food and make it the way i want to. but its just a long way to the top . 


been chilling and working on my books though and they are coming along really well. it totaly works better when i have music and can just chill and write at the same time. ya know. i think its going to be a awesome thing when i finally finish them. its just a matter of time for me to finish atleast one of them. 


well later guys and gals and thanks so much for reading this i know its random

porn and politics......

ok so i was on yahoo news and it said that presidental canadit rick santorum and his ugly sweater vest thing... k im paraphasing. wants to band hard core porn.... why on this god given earth would you want to band something like that. if its for your enjoyment then why bother ... but this also brings to question. does he watch porn ? does that mean that he wants to ban all porn? now why would you take that away from all the single men and women who work hard for their money and like watching porn. i will admit i watch porn on occuacasion when i am having a bad day and want something to laugh at. i mean seriously..... WTF just cause one person don't like being choked during the act doesn't mean everyone don't. i heart roughness sometimes. but i think that if ur going to be running a country RUN THE FUCKING COUNTRY DONT WORRY ABOUT PORNO INDUSTRY HELL THEY ARE HELPING OUT THE DAMNED ECONOMY SO ..... i would give a hooker a hundred dollars if bill mother fuckin clinton was back with hilary in the fucking white house for 2 months hell make that 2 weeks.... wtf is wrong with all the blood sucking creatures that think polos and khakis make you fucking fit to run a country as bad in shape in this one. seriously its a load of bullshit and i can't believe that he would actually say something like that....


ok its 2am and i am done with my rant i think

gr8 day

so went on my facebook and on to my farmville and low and behold i finally get my dream vacation to hawaii :D lol so got to talk to my bestie today via skype i love that invention. today has been a great day. and its still getting better. so yay me. well dearies i shall be back later maybe depending on if my mom and i decide to watch more Buffy The Vampire Slayer. and if i wanna play my Alice maddness returns. its a good day today

Hello little darlings

well hello my little darlings.

what is on the rant for today well kirk cameron is a pig. just so everyone knows. i have been a busy a little bee dealing with alot of shit. i had a really bad week last week and it just sucked . i think it could have been worse but it wasn't thank goodness. im really kinda tired of having all this pent up rage that don't go away no matter what. i dont know why its here but it is. it really sucks. i wish i could get over this writers block .... it sucks just as bad. i am ready to scream with frustration about all of this. everything sucks. well i know this one is short but idc im gonna go and cook me something to eat. later everyone.

all that jazz.

so i wake up this afternoon and find out that Davy jones passed away and a marine who is defending our country is getting shit talked b/c he kissed his domestic partner. WTF ARE YOU SERIOUS.... HE IS DEFENDING OUR RIGHT TO KISS AND MARRY WHO WE WANT AND JUST GOT FUCKING HOME TO HIS MAN. AND HE GETS SHIT ON CAUSE HE'S A GUY. IF IT WAS A FUCKING WOMAN WHO WAS KISSIN AND HUGGIN ON HER GAL SHE WOULD BE GETTING PORN CONTRACTS. SERIOUSLY I MEAN WHY SHOULD ANYONE BE TOLD THEY CAN'T BE HAPPY ALL BECAUSE THEY ARE IN LOVE WITH THE SAME SEX. ugh it just pisses me off that they would do that someone. what was the fucking point of getting rid "dadt aka dont ask dont tell " if they were just going to use the first gay soilder they came across as a media blacklash. 




but back to something worth talking about today. i figure today i will be gettin into it with people today cause you can't cure stupid with out a 2 x 4 . sorry if i piss you off but for right now i kinda feel like i walk into a crowded space i am invisable. but unless it was something i really wanted to deal with.jfs 




will write more later. 

been a couple days since i updated.. my bad. this week has been okay i guess. been having a few problems been sleeping alot more which haven't quite figured out why. it blows . i have been playing a couple of video games to get my stress down which don't know if its working yet. had my nieces birthday party today. which was Phineas and Ferb . i love that show its so awesome my favorite character is perry aka agent P #["] yes i just did that. so i have a facebook account that i am totaly addicted to on occuasion kinda blows cause i feel like its getting boring and the games are getting repeative and expensive and for someone like me with no job cause im not allowed to work drs suck for that. just sayin. i wish they would hurry and find out whats wrong with me. 


but off of the depression shit. a friend of mine sent me a video from youtube it was freaking funny as hell. i wanna to try a couple new recipes i found , i wish there was a way for the drs to find out whats wrong. the pain sucks balls and its just one of those things that i wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. 


i think this is all for now. later all

okay so this is just a way for me to blow off steam or blow off writers block or just fuck around. let me tell you about my so called life in texas. btw i do cuss A LOT so if that is going to offend you please don't read any farther as it will cause you to catch internet troll syndrom and i really don't wanna have to deal with that. this blog is for me to rant rave post random things that pop into my head or is going on. i can use proper grammer but on this i really chose not to because honestly i just don't care. if you care about how i write on the internet then go to work for mircosoft office and help them with their word processor. okay so here are a few facts about me and my life....
1. my name is Kaylla Joyce Kendrick Paxson i am married and have been married for 5 years, my husband is awesome and thats why he is my husband be jealous.
2. i don't care if you don't like me but you will respect me. this means a lot to me since i can't really say that a lot of people do actually like me. 
3. i am a BITCH in all the termerology that can be used. but i try not to be one. if it gets to that point then its your own fault and by all means you were probaly a douchebag and deserve what ever i throw at you. 
4. i am bisexual. on this topic alone i know i will have a lot of people with "your going to burn in hell for your homosexual ways." to them i say "KISS MY DICK" which brings me to my next thing in which the post-quote of KMD goes to 
5. i am pagan. i love my religion and you can't tell me i am going to hell cause that breaks rule number uno of jesus's yadda yadda yadda of "don't judge" or whatever. 
6.i can't have kids. this really bothers me and i will explain why i have helped raise over 10 kids. all of these kids mean the world to me. yet the powers that be have either decided that making me not be able to have kids is a giant joke no one told me about or that there is a child on this earth somewhere who needs me more. 
7. i write books. they are on a writing site for authors its a awesome site 
www.wattpad.com 


well gotta go i will write more later